Smith College
In Northampton, Massachusetts:

it snowed; brick palaces and courtyards submerged in ivory foam. If you drop your eyes, it becomes infinity-
the way snow looks blue,
i ran and dove in.

Kelly's loud, crass friends, discussing MTV, on antique furniture.
The piano's out of tune.


::::walls, keys, Alina's framed pictures and men on the wall, Rebecca's bed near the windows, white doors like doors, ceiling too high and corner space for spectres to hover in, three-hour nap and find meatball sub for dinner when awake, kelly swiped leftovers to go, having water, meeting people, Alina danced with a girl, Annie Ho is black on the inside, yellow outside- "A-Ho". Vagina Monologues- girls, condoms, and free chocolate. vodka, coke, and sprite, Romeo Must Die, "i'd walk sixteen blocks for Mos Def", drawing in my sketchbook, logging people's comments and conversations, Akosua lends me crayons, kelly on the floor, scrawl FUCK YOU, flip birds, her friends laughing and send her to sleep, but she throws up and Rebecca cries, i sleep alongside backwards on her bed
Breakfast in the morning, shes sick, i marvel at culture differences and have a deviled egg and various drinks- including English tea. Kelly leaves early, vomit by the door, i resume sleep and her friends barge in from a snowball fight, i wake up, read some Food Court Druids, go try some machines at the gym, shower with Kelly's shampoo and their hot hot water. Dress up in a skirt and pantyhose- Dinner: salad, lots of dressings, chicken vegetable something, carrots, chowder, somethings. Warm. Lo mein of a sort with sesame like oil, root beer. "Belgium" goes to work (washing dishes), Susy wants to take a picture of a tree around back, we're all screaming in the snow, Alina storms ahead. Kanye West on TV, house meeting "can we tune the piano so we can play it?", 100 Top Teen Idols on VH1, reading Wicked, scribble in sketchbook, curl up fall asleep. kelly wakes me up, i wash face, talk to rebecca about her life (photgraphy, french, trips to africa, france, etc), she gets into it. setup time with jeff online, find bus times for boston, shadows shaking on the walls.
they sleep early tonight::::


it was deep, i lost my footing and laughed at the surprise